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Thursday, May 31, 2007

sometimes, it feels so GREAT to be a girl (:

gosh. so many things happen these few days. (:
and holidays have been really fun and meaningful so far. (:
so i guess this is gonna be a really long post.
be prepared okay? (:

WEDNESDAY

went to school early in the morning for geog remidal,
which i thought was a total waste of time.
OH WELL.
have to read up and memorize on rivers,
because simahlian is gonna give us an assignment next lesson.
blahhh.
anyway, clique7 came to my house to stay over later that day. (:
thou, terie and jiaying couldn't stay over ): ,
but we still managed to have loads of fun.
and although the movie marathon we planned to have FAILED,
due to CHERINE AND SHEENA feeling sleepy.
and we ended up watching HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN TEN DAYS,
on channel 5.
we went into my room and started to bitch,
we chatted about the past,
how stupid we were last time,
how retarded we were,
how dumb we were.
after talking for about two hours,
all of them except me felt tired and wanted to sleep.
WHAT A LET DOWN.
good thing, dad was still watching shendiaoxianu outside,
and i went to join him (:
when i went into my room about 3,
all of them were already sleeping like pigs,
espicially sheena. (:

PHOTOS!

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me and TERIE ((:

me and SHEENA (:

me and JIAYING! (:

omg, gina is so.... yeah. you know what.

CLIQUE 7 (((((((((((((:

THURSDAY

woke up early,
despite sleeping at three,
because sheena wanted me to accompany her to eat breakfast (:
then cherine went home,
gina left for tution.
leaving me and megan ALL ALONE.
and for some reason,
my eyelids kept twitching,
bad omen. ):
we played around with my notebook.
after gina came back,
we went whitesands to eat our lunch with my family.
after that,
we walked around whitesands for awhile,
and megan, gina and ME decided to go orchard,
and cherine joined us on the MRT.
went FAR EAST and practically everything was on sale.
GSS is loves man!
although i didn't buy anything and stuff,
i still had fun window shopping with you guys! (:
and let me tell you,
the bad omen came ture!
gosh.. i embarassed myself so much in orchard,
that i wanted to dig a hole and bury my head in it.
so the next time my eyelids twitch,
i gonna lock myself in my room and not go out for the whole day.
blahblah.
for dinner,
went blk 85 to eat dinner and saw the css guy,
the 13 year old guy (:
i don't think he is really that cute. :/

i am looking forward to 16 june,
our clique7 glam night! haha.
i feel that i have been spending so much time with them recently.
maybe it is because now we are different classes,
and we realised that we missed each other loads,
and want to spend more time together. ((:

iloveclique7.

byebye! BLAHBLAH.

many many outings to go!!!!
vivien, emma, germaine, primary school friends....... etc. (((:

what we could have been, 9:29 PM

Monday, May 28, 2007

argh.
i really hate it when you talk to me like that.it is the school holidays,
why can't i just relaxed a little and watch the TV?
it has been months since i watched the damn TV okay.
all you want is me to work work work,
like a lunatic,
and getting good results.
why can't you understand that it really takes time to adapt to sec 3 life?
we can't communicate,
i tried telling you that i did better compared to sec 2,
and all you do is to say that what i say is crap.
i said i really tried giving in my best,
and you say the results show everything.
why can't you see i am like already so tired of working so hard,
if i knew that your expectations were that high,
i rather be like janan and fail every single subject,
get into normal tech, and not what dumb special stream,
which i mug and mug and get unsatisfactory results.
i rather get into some lousy secondary school,
then anglican high, which i dread going there everyday.

your expectations are high,
you said that i am the smartest in our family,
but i do not feel proud of that statement at all,
instead i feel damn stressed up.
is like one small little mistake,
and you will scold and "remind" me of my ambition.
sometimes i wonder do i really want to be THAT when i grow up?
everyone say like an L1R5 of 20 is okay,
because it is the first time that our marks is counted in this way.
but you said that the reason is that i didn't study hard enough,
i keep watching the TV,
i cannot MAKE IT,
i am PLAIN LAZY..

sometimes i really can't take it anymore,
the moment we set on this subject,
you will start preaching,
saying the amount of tution fees you have spent.
then you will say that you dun want me to end up like you.
slogging your guts out and getting such little pay.

but it is easier say than done,
getting good results,
i also want to get good results.
but then sometimes,
it is really really takes time.

i am sorry dad.
i promised i will do MUCH better the next time alright.
i will put in twice the effort i put in this time.

i am just venting my anger,
so just ignore me ehhh (:

what we could have been, 6:19 AM

Sunday, May 27, 2007

BAHHH.
i am feeling so sian-ed now.
because i am stuck with the mole concept worksheet. :/
which is like blehhhhh.
it seems i have forgotten everything..
haishhh..

don't feel like blogging anymore,
so i shall just post pictures. (:

anyway, dad said he was disappointed with me,
because of my lousy results.
and i told him that at least i pass everything,
unlike someone who failed everything single thing except science.
OH WELL.
i hate it when my parents has high expectations of me. ):

i hate it the most when people say my brother is better than me,
because that is so NOT TRUE.

what we could have been, 6:12 AM

Friday, May 25, 2007

I FOUND OUT THAT
alot of people actually reads my blog,
because my counter shot up from 30 plus to 90 plus,
which is like.....?
okay, not very good.
because i simply don't like it.
BLAHHHHHHH.

anyway,
IT IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAY,
and so many things happened.
so i shall just blog about the main points,
first i got back my report card.
L1R5=20. i hate myself. :/
15th in class, which is sucky.
because despite being in such a lousy class,
i can't get into top 10.
ARGH.
and i got into GEOG remidal,
which is like *&&%^&$%^#$.
seriously,
i rather go into HISTORY remidal.
because GEOG is like SO UNINTERESTING.
and i don't know why i took CORE geog in the first place.
arghhhhhhh.
went home after that and slept like a log.
then went for dinner with clique7 + my brother.
had KFC (:

after that,
i went to the foodfair at expo,
with my family and GINA (:
and on our way,
me and gina we talked alot.
MISS talking to her loads. ((:
and today is the first anniversary of our shanghai trip : 25 may!
gosh. one year sure pass real fast.
miss and LOVE shanghai like mad...
back to the foodfair,
me and gina were like looking out for freebies,
and we were like GO GO GO!
mum and dad bought loads of food.
walk one step, buy one thing.
i am SERIOUS.
and gina kept grumbling to buy her stupid snow ice.
we searched and searched for it,
until we finally found it..
and gina was so freaking happy!
"MY SNOW ICE!!"

okay, you can tell how happy she is from her look.

anyway, by the end of the whole fair,
we were damn full due to the amount of food we ate.
AHHHHHHHH!!!
i feel FAT FAT FAT!!!
blahhhhhhhhhh.

anyway, featured PHOTOS for the day!!

i look weird. blahhh.

anyway,
megan has problems uploading the pics.
so for the rest,
i shall post it in tomorrow post (:

and i am going into JB tomorrow morning,
so i have to sleep early tonight. (:

so bye bye and good night.
and stop reading my blog people!!! X:

what we could have been, 7:31 AM

Thursday, May 24, 2007

I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN (:
and i accidently removed the counter away ):
which means i have to start all over again.
bahhhhhhhhh~
anyway,
i just finished watching corners with LOVE.
the last episode was super nice,
a happy ending (:

wonder what are those people doing in school now.
hmmm..
probably listening to some talk about career.
well well,
staying at home is kinda bored too.
because there is no one online to entertain me.

and EVAN YO has not updated his blog for more than a week already!
so i am like so &$%^$%#%$#.
and it is stuck at the avril lagvine post.
blahhhhhhh.
MINYO quick get your blogg updated!!

and currently i am watching nobuta wo produce,
and after watching the sixth episode,
i still don't get the WHOLE storyline.
all i know is that,
there is two guys who is trying to make a girl popular.
which is like HMMM..
oh well.
shall make do with what i have.

blah blah..
what a crappy post.

i don't like to hide my dislike for another person.

and so with that,
byebye.

what we could have been, 10:07 PM

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

THIS IS GONNA BE A REAL SHORT POST OKAY!
because apparently it is way past my bedtime ):
and if i stay online any longer,
my mum is gonna come into my room,
and scream her head off.

oh well.
today was CRAP.
wasted the whole day over some career fair,
which i guess no one is really interested in. :/
so as the saying goes,
"once bitten, twice shy".
i decided NOT to go to school tomorrow. (:
in other words,
i gonna pon school tomorrow. (:
rather sleep at home,
and go listen to people talk and talk about their career.

despite feeling so crappy today,
i realised a terrible truth about SOME people.
which makes me snort and snigger.
i don't want to mention it here.
because i am a nice PERSON. (:

clique7 had a conference in msn just now,
and one of them mention that zhengwei,
asked why all the 2d girls missed 2d.
and i was wondering,
perhaps it is because i dread 3L now.
it is like people can leave you out so easily,
act so nice and close to you at one moment,
and i even wonder whether they backstabbed me.
i doubt their words, their actions.
but overall, i don't care.
anyway, it is only one and a half year more
and after that,
then it is sayo-nara. (:
i just can't wait. (:

anyway, i just finished watching rainie yang's new movie,
which is about lesbians.
apparently singapore rated the movie R21,
which i thought was only for PORN shows.
but when i watched the show,
the most the intimate thing,
was the two girls kissing and holding hands.
which was like HUH? porn?
maybe they censored the whole porn scene. (:
anyway, lesbian are kinda gross. :/

blahblahblah.
well, a short post indeed. (:
hah. can't help it, you know.
i gonna change my blogskin SOON.
and so with this,
it marks the end of the day.
good night (:
and byeeeeee! (:

what we could have been, 7:50 AM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

那时我们天天在一起
太幸福到不需要距离
很贪心要全世界注意
只是太年轻
快乐和伤心
都像在演戏
一碰就惊天动地

BOO!
my room is now filled with the chicken rice smell,
because my brother brought chicken rice in to eat.
GAHHHH.

and i almost finish watching,
corners with love (:
omg! that show is like super uber nice okay!
thou i don't really like xiaozhu,
the storyline is super nice and touching.
and i almost cried while watching the show.
because the scene was really very sad,
and they had to play MINYO's woxiangyaoshuo.
it was like @#%^$*%#^*.
so people, if you guys have time,
go and watch the show okayyy!
because it is worth your time
and it is only 16 episodes.. (:

i have so many shows to watch during the hols okay!
like 8 or 9 of them.
so you guys don't have to worry,
if i will be bored to death. HAH.
so looking forward to the hols,
because there is outings with,
people like, VIVIEN, CLIQUE 7, ZHIXIN AND PEARLY.. etc etc.
hahaha. so excited man. (:
and with all the fantastic shows,
it is gonna be a GREAT HOLIDAY!
but i promised my mum that i would study during the hols,
because my MYEs not very good. ):
i wonder if i got into bridging,
HOPE NOT ):
if not my plans for the HOLS would be ruined.

and tomorrow is gonna be such a busy day,
leadership camp,
english drama.. ):
and i still have the chem workshop
which i don't think i can go le.
because of the leadership thingy.
ARGHHH.
i was so looking forward to it okay!

anyway,
went to pasir ris park in the morning (:
and i saw a mangrove forest for the first time in my life,
and i was super amazed okayy..
saw prop roots and ariel roots.
hahaha. and i was like I LEARNT THIS IN GEOG!
gahhh..
too bad i can't upload the photos into my laptop ):

anyway,
featured photo for the day (:

i love you guys as much as i love my bunny. ((:

LOL. that was a random statement. (:

i gonna continue watching my shows.
and so BYE PEOPLE! (:

P.S: gina, my english does not suck okay! at least it is better then yours! neh neh neh! (:

what we could have been, 4:52 AM

Friday, May 18, 2007

OKAY.
i am NOT very happy now.

what a faggot man.
just because she is your girlfriend,
doesn't mean that she can't hang out with her friends anymore.
she is a girl afterall,
and we have known her since sec 1,
and i bet we know her MUCH better than you do.
afterall, you only knew her LAST year.
and i don't understand why are you acting like a THREE-year old kid?
can't you be mature in your thinking.
she is totally caught in the middle,
and trying her best to work things out,
and all you do is rant and rant.
and the sports day thing,
for fuck sake, it was ONLY a game.
so what if you win?
you don't get one THOUSAND dollars,
and people probably forget all about it after a month or so.
and you are blaming her,
you are seriously no better.
all you know is to rant and rant,
without putting yourself in her shoes.
fuck you.

okay, it was a wonderful day today.
until this guy had to come and indirectly pissed me off.
school was crap today.

just came back from tampines,
went there to eat dinner with megan and gina.
LOVE them alrights.
so much better than those crappy friends of mine.
oh well.
i had fun thou.
bought new pink nike waterbottle. (:

blahhh.
i wanna go sleep already.
BYE. (:

the more i miss 2D, the more i hate 3L.

what we could have been, 7:30 AM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

我的伤口早已经无所谓，
醒了依然继续追，
前线上绝对不撤退，
尽管寂寞太漆黑。

today is a crappy day.
got back most of my results.
and i had only one word to describe how i feel:
disappointed.
well, esp for a-maths.
the only subject that i started three weeks before the exam.
and i was super confident myself
as i thought the paper was rather easy.
but then eventually lost 14 marks due to carlessness.
from a A1 to B4.
i did cry my heart out,
but WHAT can it change?
and the other subjects are like from 60 to 70?
crap.
sometimes i began to wonder that am i dumb or what?

but i realised something today.
some friends are pure crap.
you can be really upset about your marks,
and she can be laughing and photo whore just right beside you.
the best thing is that,
she doesn't even care that you are crying or not.
ASSHOLE.
i shall do the exactly same thing if you cry.
what kind of friend is this?
well, on the second thought,
it is not friend,
just classmates.
i really wished people like gina and megan can be in 3L,
instead of some idiot like that..
go and screw yourself alright..

well, went for ed cheering after school.
saw zhixin and pearly.
for once, i decided to be nice and say hi.
sometimes, i find forgiving someone is just so easy.
afterall, we were once friends. (:

after cheering,
went white sands with zhixin,
because she wanted to see how white sands changed?
haha.

i really wanted turn back the clock,
and go back to the past.
i don't care if people go like:
"face reality."
i just like to imagine that i am still in 2d,
and not the crappy 3L.

i hate wrapfaces and ASSHOLES.

bye.

what we could have been, 5:31 AM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

FINALLY!
MYEs are over!
but somehow i still don't feel very relaxed
because i think that i kinda screwed everything up.
OH WELL.
e-maths was crap today okay.
left 10 marks worth of question BLANK.

well, after school,
i rushed home to change and went to SGH for dental.
after that,
went to meet CLIQUE 7 at vivo city. (:
i am too lazy to type out everything that happen there.
but i took loads of pics,
so i shall let the pictures do the talking ehh (:

retarded SHEENA (:

TERIE, SHEENA AND ME

GINA: hmmm.. where is my golden ticket?

HMM.. so cute HUH.

YAY! i LOVE black JELLYBEANS!!!

ME AND FAT FAT CAM-WHORING

AWWW.. we all look so PRETTY (:

GINA= EXTRA-ED

SOMEONE, TELL ME THAT I AM ONLY THREE THIS YEAR.. (:

sheena and gina high up in the sky..

TERIE, JIAYING AND WHEENA ((:

BIMBOS!

THESE KIDS HUH..

GINANANA AND ME!!

WE are walking in WATER!!

POK gina POK! ((:

this just doesn't look right..

ME AND THE PRETTY JIAYING!

*STRANGLES terie*

ERMM. what is sheena doing?

blahhh.. i am too lazy to post anymore.
THERE is simply just TOO MANY of them.
thus, i shall post the rest tomorrow. (:

for now, BYE BYE and i love you all! ((:

what we could have been, 6:05 AM

Monday, May 14, 2007

HAH. it is only like 10.45am in the morning,
and i am back from school (:
had chinese paper today.
it was little hard lahh, esp the middle part,
all the MCQs.. hah. but it shoud be rather okay.
and i was so afraid that i would forgot all the chinese ciyu i studied okay,
so before pat wong gave out the paper,
i wrote all the words that i think that i will forget how to write on my table.
haha. how RETARDED.
anyway, tomorrow is the last paper!
yay. haha. wonder if i am going with clique 7,
it has been a tradition all along,
after exams, then we go out and celebrate,
and there will always be one who cannot go one.
HAH (:

i am so excited okay!!
because tomorrow is the LAST paper!
hahahahaha.
but still, i hope e-maths won't be too difficult,
because i SUCK at e-maths alright!
shall start studying at... let's say 2pm?
should be more then enough bahhh..

btw, currently that is a branch of twits outside my house,
and they are making SOOO much noise.
GRRRR..
apparently they are my idiotic brother's friends,
and it is my bro's school marking day,
so they are planning to go out TOGTHER.
TWITS + AH BENGS
how terrible can this world get?

blahblahblah.
i gonna watch corners with LOVE now.
haha. soooo TADA!

oh gosh. my tagboard is so empty
and it is ONLY filled with the STUPID WHEENA tags.
haha. SO PEOPLE, PLEASE TAG!

what we could have been, 10:45 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

I HATE BLOGGER OKAY.
i am like re-posting this damn thing for like the thrid time.
this is getting on my nerves.

gahhh.. i am no longer in the mood for blogging man. ):

screw you blogger.

what we could have been, 6:15 AM

你说我是你的知心朋友，
是一辈子最好的朋友。
但我不想做朋友，
只想做你的情人。

2 more to go people!
left with e-maths and chinese!
YAY YAY YAY!
well, history was rather okay today,
considering the fact
that i managed to finish the whole paper right on time.
oh well.
the whole class looked rather empty
as like more than half of the class was not in school.
came home with yipeng and jeanette.
and GUESS WHAT the bus broke down.
wohahahaha.. how interesting man.
encounter with this kind of thing for the first time,
i was like wow! the bus broke down lehhhh..
i am rather amused for the remaining journey.

anyway, i came home rather late
and i was trying to imagine myself in the future.
me, sitting a room in IMH,
with everyone calling me DR LIN.
hah. i am a white robe and i somehow look super cool.
HAH. oh well. i just look thinking how i would look like in the future.

took a short nap in the afternoon
and i dreamt of stalin and his stupid propaganda.
OH GOSH. see what history can do to you.

anyway, i gonna continue to mug for e-maths and chinese..
wish me luck! ((((:

what we could have been, 5:46 AM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

BLAHHH.
a long time since i last blogged.
have been too busy mugging for the MYEs.
GAHHH.
THANK GOD i left like history, e-math and chinese before the whole thing is over.
I CAN't wait.
HAHA.

oh well. GOT TO GO!
currently mugging real hard for HISTORY.
i promised to post a proper post after the exams okay? (:

what we could have been, 6:33 AM