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turn right, right into my arms.
smile because it will make your day MUCH better.
and you know you love me.
Monday, May 28, 2007
argh.i really hate it when you talk to me like that.it is the school holidays,
why can't i just relaxed a little and watch the TV?
it has been months since i watched the damn TV okay.
all you want is me to work work work,
like a lunatic,
and getting good results.
why can't you understand that it really takes time to adapt to sec 3 life?
we can't communicate,
i tried telling you that i did better compared to sec 2,
and all you do is to say that what i say is crap.
i said i really tried giving in my best,
and you say the results show everything.
why can't you see i am like already so tired of working so hard,
if i knew that your expectations were that high,
i rather be like janan and fail every single subject,
get into normal tech, and not what dumb special stream,
which i mug and mug and get unsatisfactory results.
i rather get into some lousy secondary school,
then anglican high, which i dread going there everyday.
your expectations are high,
you said that i am the smartest in our family,
but i do not feel proud of that statement at all,
instead i feel damn stressed up.
is like one small little mistake,
and you will scold and "remind" me of my ambition.
sometimes i wonder do i really want to be THAT when i grow up?
everyone say like an L1R5 of 20 is okay,
because it is the first time that our marks is counted in this way.
but you said that the reason is that i didn't study hard enough,
i keep watching the TV,
i cannot MAKE IT,
i am PLAIN LAZY..
sometimes i really can't take it anymore,
the moment we set on this subject,
you will start preaching,
saying the amount of tution fees you have spent.
then you will say that you dun want me to end up like you.
slogging your guts out and getting such little pay.
but it is easier say than done,
getting good results,
i also want to get good results.
but then sometimes,
it is really really takes time.
i am sorry dad.
i promised i will do MUCH better the next time alright.
i will put in twice the effort i put in this time.
i am just venting my anger,
so just ignore me ehhh (:
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