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turn right, right into my arms.
smile because it will make your day MUCH better.
and you know you love me.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
things aren't getting better at all.and i am afraid of the monday
that is drawing closer and closer.
is it the right decision?
but i guess it is,
at least for now.
giving seems so easy now,
too much easy till
it really scares me.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
到家了，但一点也没有家的感觉。我曾经也拥有一个让我自傲的家，
但如今这只能成为一个幻觉。
家里冷淡淡的，只有我一个人在房间里，
家里也是阴森森的，几乎表达我心里那孤独的感觉。
望着空无一人的房子，觉得它好冷淡、好虚伪，
就像人类一样，一样令人心痛。
以前我常常盼望到学校去，
因为在那儿有令我欢笑和愉快的朋友。
从很久以前，我几乎把好朋友看成
我生命中最不可缺少的部分，
但经过一些事情后，那样的想法已经不存在了。
然而那爱去学校的热心并没有改变。
但最近，周围的人渐渐不一样了。
在班上，我感觉自己几乎是透明人，
身旁的人纷纷和我擦肩而去。
而那些我以为是我最要好的朋友，
都好像渐渐成了陌生人。
虽然认识了四年，但我逐渐感觉到自己一点也不了解你们的想法。
那天有人说了一句话，
令我难以捉摸。
“难道是我的错吗？”
我真的不知道。
原本认为这件事根本不是我的错，
但因为那句话动摇了我的信心。
对于那些说一定挺我的朋友，谢谢你。
而对于那些看起来毫不在乎的朋友，我了解。
家里也发生了好多事情，
妈说不要让这些影响我，
但你要我怎么不要去管？
我们毕竟是一家人。
好想从世界的表面消失掉，
不管一天也好。
Friday, July 18, 2008
today was SUPPOSED to be aHAPPY BLOGGING DAY.
but something unexpected happened,
and i am not really in the mood to blog.
i meant what is the fucking problem with people?
so much for 4 years of friendship and trust.
perhaps you will go like IT IS NO BIG DEAL.
but let me tell you: IT IS A FUCKING BIG DEAL TO ME.
maybe deep down there,
you feel that you have done nothing wrong,
and everything is perfectly fine.
but whatever.
anyway it is the last year already.
crap sheena i still owe your bday post. ):
i promise i will update it soon okay.
i am beginning to hate my life all over again.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
i really screwed up this time,and i screwed up big time.
i am really at a total loss.
morale of the day: talk less, think more.
i am dead serious about this.
shall post a proper post when i am free,
seriously not in the mood now.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
TODAY WAS A TOTALLY LOL DAY.
it is things like this that made me feel that
having friends can be pretty fun. (:
anyway met up with chongrui at pasir ris station first,
OMG I WAS EARLY HAHAHA. (:
anyway waited for our DEAR SHEENA for like super long,
because she woke up late haha.
lied to her that haonan and yuncheng would be coming later,
went in actual fact they were already bugis
buying a bday cake for her!
haha upon reaching bras basah,
the two of them popped out of nowhere
and we surprised sheena! (:
bet she was really really surprise,
since it was rather unexpected. (:
YAY GROUP PHOTO WORX.
cake!
birthday girl and me!
then went to get our assessment books after that! (:
well that was the main purpose of the outing,
and everybody bought loads of books! (:
then made our way to macs to eat the cake!
and guess what will happen when there are
not ONE but THREE CHILDISH GUYS AND A CAKE?
CAKE FIGHT DUH!
look at their cream-filled faces haha.
and thank god i managed to escape! PHEW.
then walked around bugis before settling at JCO donuts
to sit down because people were complaining
that their legs were sore and tired. -.-
crapped alot and played some stupid games,
like truth or dare!
and chongrui said that i was his best friend in 4L!
YAYS. hahahhahahah HAPPPYYYY~
anyway who wants to join our chen liang organisation? hah.
sheena it is your birthday tomorrow!!
finally it is your turn hahaha.
okay okay i have so much stuff to do,
so i guess i cant continue HAHA-ing here.
byebye!
Friday, July 11, 2008
old people are such a burden.thank god i would not have a chance to be old.
and i dont understand why mum
dont understand the meaning of dont wash your dirty linen in public.
crap i am getting so irritated with people so easily these days.
i am so going to screw up again,
i can feel it.
ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANE!
LOVESSSSSSSSSSS. (:
现在觉得那张面具越来越难维持了。
我试着把那极端的想法抛在脑后，
但它始终常常在我的脑海里徘徊。
可靠的友情？我已经无法认同那样的说法了。
那时的天真无邪的我渐渐已经不存在了，
留下的，只是那连我自己都感到害怕的冷漠与自私。
today had cip after school,
OMG and we realised that we gave out the flyers at the wrong block. -.-
so we had to knock at every door to ask if they have old stuff for us. (:
it was kinda relaxing for sheena, terie and me because most of the people
werent at home and we only had a pathetic stack of newspapers,
after combing four storeys out of the ten haha.
and the guys were (Y) because they collected so many stuff!
a guy even wanted to give edmund a unwanted laptop! :O
not bad not bad! (: nevertheless had fun (:
our cute little group (:
lousy bangla with lousy camera skills. :/
WHILE WAITING FOR THE GUYS...
sometimes it feels no one understands,
i dont even know what am i doing.
when pride bulids me up till i cant see my soul,
will you break down these walls and pull me through?
there is a reason for everything i do,
well at least most of the time.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
omg wth. so cooooooool. (:
and his new songs so nice. (:
it was a totally last minute decision okay.
oh man i am so going to miss my K800i,
it is like the best phone laaaaaa.
and we have like so much feelings for each other already. ):
the new phone has a touch screen function,
which i have a bad feeling about.
touch screen= phone malfunction.
anyway i am contented and THANKS DADDY. (:
sometimes i feel that i dont deserve to be treated like this.
went down to orchard after that to change my sundress. (:
omg the lime flea market thing is like (Y) (Y).
too bad i didnt have any money on me,
and the event ended on the day. ):
but fatfat and me are so going for the next one okayyyyy!
met up with zhixin after that!
went to e!hub for a while before coming to my house
to watch 19th GOLDEN MELODY AWARDS.
this year not very interesting lehhh. :/
and and zhixin decided to stayover since it was like lateeeee alreadyyyy.
hahahaha had a pretty good time with her,
very long never have a nice long chate already. (:
anyway people, zhixin's blogshop is having a sale,
and the things are rather prettttyyyy! (:
so go SUPPORT HER OKAYYY. (:
http://rosetiara.livejournal.com/
HAHA. (:
anyway evanyo's album is going to release in taiwan
IN TWO FREAKING DAYS!
*SCREAMS AND RUNS AROUND MY ROOM*
omg omg omg omg omg omg!
anyway he also cut his hair and dye it blue,
but its okay because YOYO looks good with anything! (:
evan yo new mtvvvvvvv! (:
and and and i want my hair to be like herrr!
TANG GUO SO PRETTY. (:
Friday, July 4, 2008
okay finally the pictures from wednesday. (:the traditional right after exams with clique7! (:
hahahhaha!
gina!
sheena!
OMGGGGG TERIE!
burying sheena feet?? so lame -.-
HAHAHHAHA!
fatfat looks like she is going to jump hahaha.
emo kid hahaha.
haha okay
today is picture post! (:
and happy birthday my dearest jiaying!
hope you like the surprise we gave you,
thou it will be nothing compared to shiyi's one. HOHOHO.
anyway to the six of you who want the photos,
just msn me huh huh huh. (:
Thursday, July 3, 2008
today is a idontknowwhattosay day,because we got back loads of results,
which are totally WTH. :O
shall upload pictures of yesterday
another day because my camera
battery is flat. ):
and yihan poser (i think i know who you are),
can you please act more like yihan! ):
and evanyo is like ownage yihan
no matter what. because evan yo has nice hair and face..
and the list goes on about him. (:
okay this is such a stupid post.
bye and good night.
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