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smile because it will make your day MUCH better.
and you know you love me.
Friday, April 3, 2009
it is finally friday,
the day where i can nap for 3 hours,
without feeling gulity.
things at school are pretty good these days,
the sense of belonging is kicking in,
and i no longer feel like grumbling how much i miss AHS.
although the pile of homework,
and the sleepiness we have to get through everyday,
is making me damn pissed off and mavis is emo hahaha.
but i will get by it. :D
the hardest thing about jc life isnt about
the homework or the hectic curriculum,
it is the changes in your friends life that you will have to accept.
good or bad.
suddenly their whole world does not consist of you and you only,
they have an entire whole new life,
and this life doesnt include you at all.
it used to be just you and them only,
with a whole load of people you know.
but now they talk and laugh with people you dont recognized,
some you like, some you don't.
whether you dislike their new friends anot,
you will have to accept the fact that their new friends
are already intergrated into their lives.
your inferiority complex kicks in too,
and you began to think maybe
you arent that good enough for them anymore.
you began to see the side of them you never seen before,
and you cant seem to believe your eyes or ears
that they are acting like that.
you question their actions, you make a scene,
all just to get your OLD friend back,
and changed them back to their good old self.
but when that doesnt work,
you get tired and depressed,
you slowly bit by bit, push them out your life,
until they become like just like any other normal friend
which all you do is say HI or BYE.
and the thing about pushing people out of your life,
is that you need many more to fill up that empty space.
however, when the empty spot isnt filled up,
insecurity sets in, just like a blind man on a lone island,
fearful of where he is going and at a total loss at what to do.
when you try telling your bestest friends how you are feeling,
they probably dont understand,
but it really isnt their fault,
because they arent you,
and no matter how hard they try to sympathize,
they will never know how you feel at that moment.
i guess that is how life works.
the harder you hold onto something,
the further it gets away from you.
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