If it's you and me forever

Monday, September 28, 2009

i am feeling the total opposite of this now. D:
super lethargic and i want to sleeeeep!
tomorrow is the start of where fate decides
whether its 3 years or 2 years.

somehow i dont feel that i am really prepared.

anyway mum and dad are coming back today! :D

what we could have been, 7:35 PM

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I KNOW I SHOULDNT BE HERE,
OR WATCHED GOSSIP GIRL,
and end up feeling fuzzzy all over because.....

so awwwwwwww right!
oh man oh man!
i totallllllly love blair!
and i am really damn D: at georgina
for being so mean to her!
btw i realised chuck is only good looking on set..
because he is really actually quite fat and ugly. D:

SERIOUSLY WTF!

thank god he is not with pretty blair in real life,
if not i will........................ do nothing hahaha.

okay i am going to study overnight with sheena later!
please let it be productive!

what we could have been, 6:47 AM

Sunday, September 20, 2009

the picture says it all.

what we could have been, 10:14 AM

Saturday, September 19, 2009

don't hear, don't see, don't speak.
that is the best i could do.

it is really scary to face up to reality sometimes.
to force yourself to believe that
people around you are not what you expect them to be.
for once, flaring up seems so good.
i guess emotions have been bottled up for too long
and i am willing to pay the price,
even it means losing you both.

friends, probably the most important people in my life.
the most valuable possession after family, in my opinion.
without them, i wouldn't be who am i right now.
seriously, i don't expect every of my friends to know me inside out like gina,
nor be the first to be there whenever i need someone like sheena,
or even make me feel important.
but the least i feel is to be a little sensitive to my feelings.
its okay to be left out, pushed around to other people,
because in a group of three, there will be a odd one out.

but the clash in the thinking and way words are put,
never fails to make me lose faith again and again.
everyday i go school, thinking how to make
the front i put up in front of you to be more perfect.
and then it just gets harder and harder.
perhaps we were never meant to be,
and it would be probably a good idea for me to step out of the picture of awhile.
i am sure both of you will manage on your own.
an insignificant figure like me, wont have much of an impact anyway.

and lastly, i want to say THANKS yingzhi
for chasing after me on friday after school,
that really meant alot and it made me feel
at least someone bothers about me
and understands me to a certain extent. :)
and thanks sheena for being only person
to hear me go on and on about the same things all day,
and never ignore or gets pissed.
the most importantly, understanding how i really feel. :D
and gina and zhixin for the dinner
and the words that made me feel so much better! :D

finally, i am being FELICIA for once.

what we could have been, 7:30 AM

Friday, September 11, 2009